Are You Asleep?

A year ago tonight Tony and I laid side by side on a bed as hard as a cinder block (and just about as big) at The White Rose Hotel in Wuhan, China. Neither one of us slept a wink. We were so excited, nervous, anxious, happy, and READY to meet our sweet Lily!!

More so than any other time during the wait the night before we were united with Lily I was terribly anxious. I kept forgetting to exhale and my shoulders were literally glued to my earlobes. I tortured myself with "What If's". What if Lily doesn't bond with us. What if we don't bond with her? What if she is sick? What if I'm not meant to be a mother? You get the picture. It was not a pretty sight!

As is Tony's way, he was much more private about his feelings. However, it was obvious he was a nervous wreck, too. Tony was sweating profusely and kept letting out these little sighs. I think he was forgetting to exhale, too!

If only somehow we could have known what an amazing year lay ahead of us maybe we would have slept a little better. Okay, you're right...probably not!

All that worry over little ol' me??