Can I Go Back Tomorrow?

Today was Lily's first day of Kindergarten!



She absolutely LOVED it!!

In fact, during dinner tonight Lily asked us if she could back tomorrow. I'll take that as a good sign!



Lily has been counting down the number of sleeps until kindergarten started for weeks now. I am so happy the day lived up to her expectations!



Last night Lily asked if we could have dinner at "The Best Restaurant Ever" to celebrate her starting kindergarten.

No, she didn't mean Panera...she meant her very own little table for two (or three) in our very own basement. It was lovely...even if the service was a littly shotty!

This morning when Lily woke up one of the first things she asked me is if she could have sour cream pancakes for breakfast before her first day of school.

I tell you, Girlfriend really milked this first day of school thing!

I made sour cream pancakes the other day and Lily loved them. This morning when Lily requested the pancakes she asked me to make sure I used "the exact same ingredients" I used the other day. Only 5 years old and she already doesn't trust my culinary skills. Smart girl...obviously ready for kindergarten!!

A cooked breakfast was actually a nice way to start our day. Don't worry. I have no delusions of making a cooked breakfast every morning!! I imagine by Friday Lily will be gnawing on a cold bagel in the backseat of the car while I rush to get her to school on time!!

But, for today, I could pretend I had my act together.

Just in case I didn't, Tony took today off so he could see Lily off to school and to keep an eye on his crazy wife!



I'm proud to say I did a darn good job of keeping it together. That doesn't mean there wasn't a tear or two. There was. But, that was it...a tear or two.

My mom used to often say she "needed a good cry". I never quite understood what she meant. I do now.

In fact, I feel like I want to cry myself to sleep. I wonder if that would help with this tight feeling I have in my throat...and my seeming complete inability to breathe. Seriously.

For reasons unknown I seem to be holding my breath without even realizing it. Then, suddenly, I find myself sort of gasping for breath. I'm certain it will pass in a few days. Once I somehow get my brain around the fact that this sweet little baby...



is now this sweet big girl...



I have so much more to to say about today, but right now I need to drink some red wine, get some sleep, and try to remember how to breathe! Not necessarily in that order!

But first, can someone also please tell me how these sweet little babies turned 18 today????



Life is going by so fast!!

Happy birthday Adam, Ben, and Sam!! We love you so much and can't wait to see you this weekend!