Now You're My Whole Life

It's rare that I drive in my car alone. I normally have a precious little backseat driver. However, the other day I was actually driving in the car by myself. I don't want to admit how long it took me to realize I was listening to one of Lily's CDs. Needless to say, once I did realize it I popped the CD out as quickly as possible!

I can't tell you the last time I listened to the radio. It's been a very long time. Seriously. Anyway, I was flipping through the stations when I heard the song "Then" by Brad Paisley. It's the first time I've heard the song and it brought tears to my eyes. If you're not familiar with the lyrics here they are:

I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you. You had me mesmerized.
And three weeks later in the front porch light, taking forty five minutes to kiss goodnight.
I hadn't told you yet, but I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world.
And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I remember, taking you back to right where I first met you. You were so surprised.
There were people around but I didn't care.
I got down on one knee right there.
And once again, I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world.
And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I can just see you, with a baby on the way.
I can just see you, when your hair is turning grey.
What I can't see is how I'm ever going to love you more.
But I've said that before.
Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world.
And I just can't believe the way I feel about you girl.
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in and I'll look at you and say,
"And I thought I loved you then."

Obviously this song is written about a relationship between a woman and a man, but that didn't stop it from giving me one of those deja vu, tears in my eyes, goosebump moments. I literally had just been thinking about how much I love Lily and how that love continues to grow and grow when this song came on.

I have loved Lily since she was just a wish in my heart that I hadn't shared with anyone...not even Tony. That love continued to grow when I was finally able to see her sweet little face for the first time. Of course, that was nothing compared to how much deeper my love for her grew when I first held her in my arms. And now, every day, that love continues to grow in ways that amaze me and take my breath away.

I also know that someday I will look back at this moment with Lily and think, "And I thought I loved you then."