A Watched Phone Doesn't Ring

A year ago I visited the Rumor Queen site 1,000 times a day (and that is only a very slight exaggeration). That site was absolutely my life-line to what was happening in the China adoption world and I got much more useful information from there then from our actual adoption agency. On the morning of March 5th I saw the news on RQ that European agencies were stating that October 24th was the cut-off. WE WERE IN!!!! YIPPEE YAHOO!!!!

I spent the remainder of the day waiting for "the call"...and waiting...and waiting. As the day wore on more and more of my cyber friends were posting their wonderful news and some even had pictures of their beautiful babies to share. It was such an exciting and emotional day. We had waited so long together and we had formed such a great support network that it was fun to share in their joy. However, the closer we got to the end of the day...and still the phone didn't ring...I started to get really nervous and had a very sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Our agency did warn us that sometimes they received referrals a day or two after the bigger agencies but I still worried....I mean...I am TJ afterall! Since I had anticipated getting "the call" I had taken the day off of work. There was no way I wanted to be interpreting and not be able to take "the call" when it finally came in! The way I viewed it I was in labor!!

When Tony and I knew we were getting close...really, really close to receiving Lily's referral we decided not to share that fact with our family and friends until we knew something definitive. We had so many people strapped in this crazy emotional rollercoaster with us for so long that we thought we would try and spare them a few of the ups and downs. That idea was great in theory. There was one huge snag though....when you talk to your sisters 10 times a day and you know you're about to be a mom at any second...it's really hard to keep that to yourself...but somehow I did!

As the day came to a close and the phone hadn't rang I was pretty emotional...okay...a lot emotional! After a few glasses of wine and a pretty good cry I actually did sleep that night. It's a good thing I did because the next day was a REALLY exciting and wonderful day! I will post more about that tomorrow. For now, here are a few pictures from our trip to the library today.