Looking Back

It's March already. Somehow I just can't believe it. As we approach the 1 year anniversary (March 9) of receiving Lily's referral I have been spending a lot of time thinking back to this time last year. I was really crazy back then...I'm talking major league crazy...in desperate need of an extended stay at the Ha Ha Hotel kind of crazy.

What I remember most was crying all the time, sleeping very little, and drinking a lot of red wine. I think that pretty much sums up my existence back then. I tortured myself with the 'What Ifs'. You know...What if somehow our paperwork got lost? What if somehow we're skipped? What if? What if? What if? Hence the tears, insomnia, and drinking!

I wish somehow I could have known that just 1 year later I would be feeding our sweet daughter lunch and trying (unsuccessfully) to explain to her why her stuffed bear did not want to eat part of her beanbito (bean burrito).

Mommy, can I give my bear just one bite?

It is absolutely amazing the difference a year has made! I still cry from time to time...but now they're happy tears. I still have sleepless nights from time to time...but now they're spent comforting our sweet Lily. I still drink red wine from time to time...but now it's not on a nightly basis!